Aishen ♥

Training , training & MORE training!

2012-02-08T06:45:00.000-08:00

A ore will always be a stone ,
unless someone put a effort in refining it .
Outcome doesn't matter ,
you just knew you had put in your best .

AiShen
8 february 2010 { 11:00pm )

But if you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.

2012-01-29T06:53:00.000-08:00

Sometimes , fate and your dreams will collide...

AiShen
29/01/2012 { 10.57pm }

My wish ...

2012-01-17T08:50:00.001-08:00

It's just another normal day...

2012-01-17T07:23:00.000-08:00

All my fears creep and crawl across my skin and
these four walls are after me and moving in .
All that i want to do
is giving up , giving in and let this one stay where it is...

A great success in creating havoc in Junction 10 Giant . I messed up the whole fking place yesterday and today . Instead i had a freaking cool achievement today , HAHA i crash the whole cashier into a few pieces . Never mind that's not the main point of this post . I'm having my birthday in just 30 minutes time . Somehow i feel that Birthday is just another normal day , nothing much nothing less , just NORMAL... Gonna spent the night sleeping at home . How lonely right? I know it sucks , but too bad that's my life ...

AiShen
17/1/2012 { 11.30 pm }

FUCKING not my day today man....

2012-01-15T06:47:00.001-08:00

Everyone deserves a standing ...

Today is totally fuck-ed up! . Was scolded for nothing 2 times . I was scolded continuously one after another today by the China dog manager & and the Imm fking short and fking fat Coca Cola staff . Fucking angry man! Stupid , tomorrow i confirm go create havoc at the Giant supermarket already . Stupid China dog . Step one lika boss , look down on people working for you . Someday i will fucking throw money on your fuck face , stupid idiot .

AiShen
15 january 2012 { 10.56 pm }

I think i seriously have a good tolerance of boredom ~~

2012-01-06T06:42:00.000-08:00

Every moment of our past , will always be a shadow of our present ...

No pictures for this post . Decide to share a song that i am addicted to nowadays , it's lyrics is quite emotional for me but i like it alot . Anyway had a damnmit boring day today . Went working at Junction 10 . A newly build plaza and all the facilities is still under construction . The most horrible part is that i was stationed alone at Giant , while my rest of the Coca - Cola colleagues went to other places to setup other station at other places . So what i did whole day was shopping around Junction 10 even though there's only 3 to 4 shops opened ... I even went to handicap toilet to " slack " . Above all I'm highly paid for standing there whole day , cool right ? LOL ~~ Ok gonna sleep , tomorrow will be another crazy and boring day ~ Nights guys !

AiShen
6/1/2012 { 10:57pm }

CRAZY NEW YEAR!

2012-01-02T09:17:00.000-08:00

Being single isn't so bad yeah?
Haha i get to do things my way!

Had a fucking crazy night yesterday.
Even though there's a bit screwed up , but still ended off with a great night out ~
That's the true night life man !
Fucking hell YEAH!
2012
HAPPY NEW YEAR !

AiShen
3/1/2012 [ 1.26am }

Accept the truth , you're weak ...

2011-12-23T03:42:00.000-08:00

Memories made me stronger .
You won't be appreciated being vulnerable ...
Dreams act as a aim , a destination you would work for when you're lost ,
when your life are messed up ...
Time to wake up my mind and face the reality .
No one is going to pity you .

Woke up early today , went out for the working training . It's kinda boring , throughout the whole training ... But no choice , plus i'm paid for attending the training , so yeah... AND i skipped training today ... Didn't really know if i really skip it or the training was cancel because it was raining damn heavily this afternoon . Going out later to drink ... i keep remember the words that Shifu always say in training , " Water , NO BEER! " , feel kinda guilty everytime hearing him says that . Yet i'm always drinking so often ... I gonna training harder already , i still got so much to achieve yet . I still got alot more to improve ... Especially my legs ...

AiShen
23/12/2011 { 7.57pm }

FML! FUCK SINGAPORE MRT & FUCK THIS WEATHER!

2011-12-19T04:05:00.000-08:00

DAMMIT~ Went out just now to memorial for training ... The fucking Mrt was flood with people , i almost got crush by the door of the train when sqeezing my way into the train ... The moment i reached , i called my friend and he said that due to heavy rain the Mrt service stop and he decide not to go for training , then he asked me to go back woodland for gym . At first i was like " anything lo " cause the training at memorial was also cancelled . So i went to take the sqeezy train again , being sqeezed like prata like that ... Then when reached Marsiling , i see the fucking rain so heavy , my training mood also fade away liao ... My friend du lan me because i dont wan to go gym with him already ... Also cannot blame me right ? Nevermind dont care him . So currently i just finished my workout at home . Woosh~~

AiShen

19/12/2011 { 8.16pm }

WOOOSH~~~ DAMMIT~

2011-12-15T09:11:00.000-08:00

Things that you want ,
might not be the thing you would want to achieve .
Confidence .
That's probably what one lack of ...

SHIT! Tomorrow gonna wake up early ... Hate it man ! Hope would have a nice day tomorrow ~ MONEY MONEY COME~~~ BYE~

AiShen
16/12/2011 { 1.23am }

Meant so much ... So much...

2011-11-25T08:23:00.000-08:00

First Love .
Maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it's the only person who will ever receive all of you.
After that , you'd learn better.
But, most of all , no matter what , a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved.
A piece that no future lover could ever get , no matter what.
That piece holds innocence , the belief that love really can last forever.
It holds friendship and pain , trail and error , that one kiss you'll never forget , and that night under the stars you can never get back.
It holds youth and everything you thought love would be , everything was proven wrong.

By : Adeline Tan

Lately i'm thinking what can i do ,
but it's hurts whenever things gone into waste,
after rounds and rounds of struggling , fighting & persevering .
Friends , lovers and eventually strangers ,
thinking about it ,
everything wasn't worth it .

AiShen
26/11/2011 { 12.42 am }

2011-11-18T06:42:00.001-08:00

PARANOID!

2011-11-18T06:15:00.001-08:00

Listening to 91.3fm ~
Very tired , sleeping soon~

AiShen
18/11/2011 { 10.17pm }

Going drinking again ...

2011-11-16T01:52:00.001-08:00

Girl , you just perfect in that very moment ...
Time seems stopped with your appearance.

Going out soon ,
Just worked out .
Freaking tired man~~
Gonna talk more and
drink lesser later ~
No more binge drinking!
Sounds awkward but my friends are quite "special" actually ...
Lol they like to go out in the night...
I'm going rest first and then go out later .
Bye~

AiShen
16/11/2011 {6.01pm }

Argh~ Missed a night out ..

2011-11-15T07:08:00.000-08:00

Be myself!

Damn bored ... Missed a night out with friends to "Memories" .
Fk! Didn't workout today ,
that's why decided not go go already .
Dammit man ! Should have workout just now in the afternoon .
You see , I'm a person with good self-discipline ehh~
And some more i hate to fail myself for something i'm working for !
Sounds stupid but yeah , that's me .
The things i'm doing frequently is seriously too unhealthy already .
No workout equal die fast man! HAHA
Omg i gonna workout tomorrow already .
If not i'm like feeling more and more weak . < and a bit of guilt >
Need some intensive training tomorrow already man!
Hell YEAH!

AiShen
15/11/2011 { 11.19 pm }

HELL YEAH!

2011-11-14T04:39:00.000-08:00

WOOTS! Exam officially ended man!
Fucking free man already .
Gonna throw away all the books!
Hate them man!
At last! I'm done with all the brain workouts~~~

AiShen
14/11/2011 { 8.42pm }

Long gone...

2011-11-13T03:26:00.000-08:00

Attached doesn't mean you're unavailable too ...

Had a fucking hangover this afternoon , upon waking up from my bed till now ...
Anyway had a great night yesterday .
Happy things don't last ,
time to face the reality!
Let the kick set in man~

AiShen
13/11/2011 { 7.30 pm }

Wish come true ...

2011-11-11T07:03:00.001-08:00

It's 11/11/11 11.11pm today!
Wish my dream come true ...

AiShen
11/11/2011 { 11.11pm }

It's just not my day...

2011-11-04T05:06:00.000-07:00

Nothing was real .
The truth is that you're alone .
The truth is that nothing is working out .
I shall stop believing on what i see .
Love will just blind me from all the truth.
Believe on what's my heart feels before your appearance .
and
That's the truth .
Because heart tends to give false information after your words.
And the facts is that ,
you're just another her .

Once you decided to leave ,
you're never welcome back again.

Tell me why~~

2011-11-02T08:37:00.000-07:00

Is this real ?
I'm tired waking up every morning ,
afraid of losing you .
Losing everything .
Losing myself .
I want you so much closer .

Am i too stress out?

2011-11-02T05:53:00.000-07:00

Today just finish my O's Physics paper 2 and Geography paper . O's level examination is totally a race against the time man! I found out that for all that O's level examination paper i took so far , all of them i just manage to finish in time ... I don't even have extra time to check through the papers ... And i found out i made quite a few numbers or careless mistake!! Damn wasted ~ If the time can give another 30 min i confirm can do a better job man! ~ 3 more papers to goooo! Social Studies , Chem & phys paper 1 and Dnt theory~~ Anyway i found that i seriously get some sleeping disorder ... And it's getting worst ... Yesterday night i totally can sleep , not even fall asleep for half a hour ... I just lied on my bed from 11 pm to 4am in the morning , then i decided to wake up to study instead of lying there praying to sleep somehow , which was not going to happen . I'm damn freaking tired today ... The moment i reached home i straight run to my bedroom and collapse on my bed already ...

AiShen
2/11/2011 { 9.03 pm }

YOU

YOU.
Hopes everything is true ...

LIGHTING!~

2011-10-31T05:54:00.000-07:00

Chemistry paper tomorrow!~ Hope can sleeep well tonight!!~ Anyway after this week would be relax already , even though last paper is on 14 November , but this week gonna be tough . All the memorizing part of the examination is coming up this week . Got Geo , Social Studies and DNT ... Crap all packed together in this week. Time is running out man!~

A heart that's hard to ever believe again ...

2011-10-29T10:16:00.000-07:00

Girl , if you are really what you said .
I don't believe it .
Nothing is real .
Believe is just a tool for another lie .
Prove me wrong k?

I LIKE IT LIKE THAT!~~

2011-10-29T09:05:00.000-07:00

Argh~~ damn bored!! I'm all alone at homeeee~ Parents went oversea and brother in army doing his guard duty ... Shit~~ House damn quiet , seriously not used to it . Anyway i'm listening to 987fm~ haha it kept me companied last night , even though didn't sleep well last night or should i say nowadays? Dammit , don't know why am i keep waking up every few hours , like can't even have a good sleep till morning ~ Think examination then quite stress with studies that's why having problem sleeping ... OMG i just can't wait to get myself a BIG TOY! Gonna earn myself a Aprilla next year ~ Then that will be my first dream ever fulfill~

AiShen

30/10/2011 { 12.13 am }

YAY~ Done with English paper!

2011-10-24T04:57:00.001-07:00

I'm unique , in my own way!~

Done with English paper 1 and 2 ~ woo felt so relieve man~~ But sad thing is that i'm sick... Damn sick ... I think i did quite well for compo , even though i did have enough time to check . I just need more time man ... Anyway this is the first time i'm writing a compo where i describe all the characters and scenes in detail man ~ Mr Lim notes was indeed useful~ At least i learn some writing skills in between the studying of his notes ~ Anyway still got more days to conquer ~ 14 November , IMMA COMING!~

AiShen
24/10/2011 { 8.05pm }

SMILEEE~

2011-10-18T04:24:00.000-07:00

Facing situations with a smile .

At least ,

that's the best and the only thing i could do as a flavor

for myself .

AiShen

18/10/2011 { 7.28pm }

Lady Crabby is dead...

2011-10-12T06:38:00.001-07:00

My girl girl crabby is dead... Wonder how she die , i still remember i feed her yesterday before i went to sleep and she was still fine ... Maybe it's a sign , Yeah ?~ Never mind lonely me , lonely boyboy crabby~ Okay , tomorrow is the last day of my Secondary schooling ~ Think i'm gonna miss my classmates alot , they are great yo~ But still , i really hope i can get into POLY as fast as possible! Wish there's outing or something with my classmates after O's ~ O's level is hunting us down~~~ Come on bring it on!

AiShen
12/10/2011 { 9.46 pm }

Independant's day! ~

2011-10-11T06:30:00.000-07:00

When people walk away from you , let them go .

Your destiny is never tied to anyone who left .

From:Unknown

It's okay to be broken ...
But making the same old mistake again , is intolerable !

It's no longer the perfection that i was seeking ...

Truth , I'm starting to accept you.

Life begins now !

I'm not going to be blinded from all the happy little things in life again .

It's how special relations can be .
Start off together happily through days , weeks , months and years
but ended easily with words that takes only minutes ...

AiShen
11/10/2011 {9.53pm } ( Saved someone from her misery. Good deed? )

Lovely couples ...

2011-10-08T06:16:00.000-07:00

I'm ain't perfect ...
But i'm willing to try .

2 posts today . No reasons but i just feeling like posting ~ Really hope exams could soon be over! I really need some rest ... Gonna have a good smoke & drink after exams , I really need some... 2 more weeks to first paper. Like stress , but it's okay~ I just gonna endure for 1 more month and i'm FREE!~ Currently checking at my facebook , couples nowadays like sooooo sweet~ I'm sooo jealous~ Someday , someday i will have one~

AiShen
8/10/2011 { 9.25 pm }

I get jealous sometimes , when looking at how happy other's are...

2011-10-08T03:07:00.000-07:00

I just wish everything can be like before...

Chances is all i need...

I'll give my everything .

After a heavy rain , it just gonna be another round of rain ...

Rainbows ain't coming out without you ...

I need you to be closer...

Please don't walk away ...

AiShen

8/10/2011 { 6.24 pm }

Going through a downpour ...

2011-10-05T02:06:00.000-07:00

Should have hold you tightly and never let you go ,
but i slipped through the chance already ...

Why must your feeling change...
You left me with no choice but to comply ...
why...

You used to be mine ...

But you gave up ...
Maybe we really don't have the true strength...

I love you ...

AiShen
5/10/2011 { 5.27pm }

T.T

2011-10-04T09:23:00.000-07:00

I just feel like running away from reality ...

It's already the end , yet nothing had seems okay to me ...

I'm staying...

Hoping one day you will come back and find me again...

Truth is that , there was no others'
I only wanted you...

AiShen
5/10/2011 { 12.41am } ( Lost )

Sign... You're giving up..

2011-10-03T03:00:00.000-07:00

I just want you to know ...
When you don't reply my text, it makes me feel that you're texting someone else that is more important than me...

Hoping some days you will understand me ...

Trying , but who would apreciates ?

Failed ... But who cares?

Failed better but you are making it worst...

That days ain't gonna come ...

Miracles don't happen .

Things aren't fine ...

你说你不会放弃的。。
最终还不是放弃了。。

AiShen
3/10/2011 { 6.53 pm }(Do you even miss me...? )

Is it really me , the one to blame?

What wrong i did to deserve this?

Maybe it's simple ,

you had given up .

So what if i don't let go ...

You'd ...

Still...

Push me away...

Chance to end things right?

2011-09-25T03:00:00.000-07:00

I'm just keep falling into the same old shit again...
Somethings need to be done!

Maybe those tough decisions ,

was actually the right decisions...

I'm special too !

Ain't gonna lose myself in the process again!

Actions speaks louder then WORDS!

How i wish i can pull my heart out and

stab it countless time with a knife ...

Heart-aches is so FUCKING IRRITATING!

AiShen

25/09/2011 { 6.19 pm }

HEY GIRL! IT'S YOU SO STOP WONDERING!~

2011-09-24T06:16:00.000-07:00

Because i feel so much alive when i'm with you!

There's some so addictive about you ,

that kept me from keep wanting more!

So let's start building up the love until the very end!~

I want you to stay not just for a long time ,

but forever!

So tell it , show it and prove it!

If you were to ask me why i love you ...

That's it~

So start learn how to apologies ! haha~

Cherish it.

I would never regret risking it for you!~

Cause you make me SMILEEE~

AiShen

24/9/2011 { 9.54 pm }

Every second seems like hours...

2011-09-21T06:24:00.000-07:00

如果我能在有多一次机会的话，
我会紧紧的抓住你的手，
永远都不想放開了...

LOVES NEVER LIVE!

2011-09-20T05:20:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wish that i can be asleep forever ,
to escape from this harsh reality ...

Shit! I really need to pull myself together already ... Keep day dreaming inside class , if not then can't concentrate ... Wonder what's wrong with me . From today onwards must keep remind myself to " BUCK UP ! Stop thinking of irrelevant things! Few more days! Struggle through and you are free from all the stress and miserable things! " Hope it really works! I really need more focus , more mental strength and more things to do , to diverse my attention ! I can do it!! Yeah i can! And i must! Goodluck to myself~~

AiShen
20/9/2011 { 8.30 } [ The day i fall ... Once again ... ]

My love...

2011-09-19T05:28:00.000-07:00

Hope you find what you're really looking for.

Maybe you are too not into me...

You are want i always wanted , but to you , i'm not...

I can never be back to you again...

Everything is falling out ...
Yeah... Me and You...

You may not appreciate me ...

But hope you did appreciates the things i had did for you...

The moments i'm with you ...

Because deep down in my heart , i really cherished every second spent with you...

Sorry ,
I really tried my best to be the one...
I really had...
No matter how much i tried , things just don't work out...
I can never be the one...
I don't bear to... but i had no choice but to walk away ...
Even though it hurts a lot knowing that i can't be with you anymore , but ...
I really don't know what i can still do , to bring us together.
It's really tough to make this decision.

AiShen
19/09/2011 { 8.45pm }

How amazing !

2011-09-15T05:24:00.000-07:00

It would be great .

if a heart don't feels ,

a brain that don't thinks ,

a eye that don't sees ...

I would then , never saw you , never felt you and never thought of you ,

AND i won't be sad ANYMORE!

What friends are!

2011-08-08T04:40:00.000-07:00

Friendships tender between two ,

it's the bond that feels so true.

It's not a burden nor a tool ,

but a feeling none can fool.

Friendship loves and trusts from the heart ,

and ensures the two mates do not part .

Friendship's friendly , kind and warm ,

only on strong foundation does it form .

Friendship swallows and accepts ,

never restricted by percepts.

It tolerates and understands

and for your good she will defend .

Friendship's loyal and patient .

It's not of words but of actions .

She comes and sits by your side ,

lending her ear to give you might .

Friendship's fragrant and living ,

filled with lists of fresh blessings .

Friendship's sweet and true ,

it's that bonding that none can fool .

By : Celestine Chew

AND she's only Secondary 3!!

AiShen

8 August 2011 { 7.54 pm }

I know it's you!

2011-08-03T04:39:00.000-07:00

I want YOU!~~~

AiShen
3/8/2011 { 7.41 pm }

The gap between us...

2011-07-31T06:28:00.000-07:00

If i can't be the one ,
i would rather walk off silently ,
and be myself!

Is that the reason why my heart ache so often?
连呼吸都痛。。。

AiShen
31 July 2011 { 9.45 pm }

It ends tonight...

2011-07-25T03:12:00.000-07:00

I can't pretend as if nothing had happened
and continue to believe!

Need a backup plan!!

2011-07-11T03:47:00.000-07:00

Missing someone is the most heart-aching things to do.

Had my Chinese O's oral today. Dammit , i totally flunk the oral ... The conversation first question most probably i had said not enough points . But hope the points in second and third question could cover up the marks... Wish i could get a b3 or b4 for chinese man~

AiShen

11/7/2011 { 6.55pm }

OMG i am still in my own dreamland...

2011-06-26T04:42:00.000-07:00

I can't just wait forever...
I got my life to walk ,

i can't be just running after something that has no ending...

I'm not a super man ,
i get tired too...

Omg i just found out that school is going to reopen on tomorrow. Hate such feelings man . I haven't get my mental prepared for the studying yet ... But still gonna bring my best to school , Cause it's just 5 month before Os . Can't risk it .

AiShen
26/6/2011 { 7.56 pm }

BRAIN CELLS!

2011-05-27T04:48:00.001-07:00

Next Monday gonna have O level Chinese !
Oh shit~~
I am yet having a holiday mood now instead
of stressing about the exam...
Sure gonna be a nervous day man~
I must DO WELL!
ALL way man! WOO

AiShen

27 may 2011 { 7.51 pm }

Different? I bet its just another same story...

2011-05-24T06:51:00.001-07:00

Before knowing my mistake & weakness ,
do you even try to understand me?

After every hurricane comes a Rainbow?
Where's my Rainbow then?

Everyone wants to be happy...
If thing in life just get worse and worse,
How could you even be happy when knew the future is only melancholy...

It's sometimes so hard for me using words to express myself...

I should just let all this pictures shows how i feel...

AiShen

24 May 2011 { 10.00pm }

A word that would simply means everything...

2011-04-22T01:17:00.001-07:00

Have you ever wondered ,

why the one you loved won't fall for you?

It's simply the same logic as you won't love a girl that you dont want to ,

even though she loves you ...

Right?

AiShen

22 April 2011 { 4.33pm }

Lost & Insecure...

2010-11-23T00:21:00.000-08:00

My love to you ...

It's not something like science ,

which could be created by chemical reaction...

Or Math to caculate the amount of love i could gave you...

Neither English ...

That language could be used to express how much i loved you ...

It's not a simple thing...

Everything was like fated...

There's nothing much i can do...

When the nights fall ...

2010-11-05T12:52:00.000-07:00

Do you truely understand the pain ?

Because you don't , that's why you will never understand me...

I should be sleeping now , but i can't get my eye closed... I don't wish for tomorrow to come ... I just wish that everything could stop on the happiest moment in my life... You must be thinking that i am crazy right? But that's always what is on my mind ... It's currently 4am on the clock ... Most of the people must be sleeping very sweetly now~ I don't feel like sleeping but yet i can't find anyone to chat with ... Sometimes thinking , that i can never find someone that's truely can understand me ... That someone which can let me spill out all the thoughts that's in my mind... Maybe it's because i am too sensetive to people ? Because i can't find "trust" in them ...

Always thought that surprise would happen ...

Or is it because

i'm too naive?

AiShen

06 November 2010 { 4.06 am }

If i were to be with you...

2010-09-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

Hands over my head thinking what else could go wrong...

How can a day be so long?

All i went through , led me to you ...

I would do it all over again

for YOU...

Ok really quite a long time since i posted. My Math , Science , Geography and DnT would be coming in just 2 week time . So fast one year is going to be over . Might miss the school but thinking of all the bad memories and things that happen in this school made me feeling that leaving is still better then staying , but of cause if i can stay for Sec 5 i would be very happy . Cause eduacation is still very important. Ok let's say about what happen on Friday ~ Alot accidently or maybe incident happen in school . 2 fights broke out in school today . One was in canteen and another was at the hall . Like cool right ~ But i was not in the fights haha . Then one more unfortunate things happen is that my hair was caught by Mr Felix during assembly in the hall ... He like purposely want to embarass me only . Cause alot people was around me then he just shout so loud like scare i can't hear him ... He shouted saying that want to suspend me all those ... So after assembly went out of hall with Mr Lim while the other cohort stayed in the hall for talks . Then Mr Lim told me to cut my hair then Monday when come to school go to find him then he will bring me to Mr Felix to settle my hair problems . Tomorrow going to go cut my hair , but the Salon never answer my call , don't know whether they off for vacantion or what . Hope that tomorrow call the Salon again the auntie will answer the call , if not Monday i sure get suspend already . So currently doing nothing just listening to some soft music . Don't know why nowdays like being troubled by unknown things... I also cannot figure what is it ... Just feel so weird . Ok nothing much to post already . Bye guys ~

Everything reminds me of you ...

Do you remember the first place we met?

Do you remember the show you said that was touching?

Do you remember the song i sang that made you cry?

Everything is just impossible to be forgotten...

Do you still remember??

AiShen

18 September 2010 { 10.56 pm }

The only light I see.

2010-09-05T04:41:00.000-07:00

Loving you was never wrong , but

leaving you is my biggest regret.

Ok . Didn't go out for this weekend . Had been studying for all the whole day. I woke up at 10am today because I could not stop thinking about my N level for the entire night. Seriously super stress over it.

I'm very worried about my English because if my English fail, I am seriously going to end up in ITE.

Tomorrow's my first N level paper which is Chinese. I seriously hope that I can get A1 or B3 to pull up my overall score. Social Studies exam on Tuesday. Hope my hard work can pay off since I've been focusing so much of my time on it. I've been reading and memorising countless essays from the textbooks and notes given by mrs stephanie lee. Please brain, please remember all the points of the essay so that I can get high marks for my Social Studies .

Wednesday is going to be my long dreaded English exam. I'm rather confident for paper 2 but super worried for paper1 man. It's like always pulling my overall marks down, especially for the past two prelims. In addition, I don't really know what happened to me man. I am having difficulty constructing a proper sentence. Oh well, It could be due to me being very used to speaking in singlish or writing sentences with singlish already. I must definitely change that habit already if I want to pass my English.

So currently, I've just finished my dinner. Going to take a short rest before going to bath . Actually I should really be studying now but yet I am blogging here . You guys must be very grateful that I am sacrificing my study time to blog for your entertainment! ~ HAHA

I am so going to sleep really early today so that I can concentrate well during the examination tomorrow. Ok, think I'll stop here already. Bye guys ~ Wish me good luck for all my papers ! (;

Maybe I know that somewhere deep in my soul

that love never lasts ,

but your appearance changed that

because

you are the only exception.

AiShen

5 September 2010 { 8.01pm }

Free falling , it seems like it will never end.

2010-09-04T04:50:00.000-07:00

You are something , something that injects directly into me ,

something that i want to forget about ,

yet memorable for one to give up on.

Ok. Another one week since i last posted. Omg, N level is like starting on Monday, means i've only 1 more day to get myself prepared. It's so freaking fast man. Omg damn stress!
Last week and the week before, I had been reading essays for my Social Studies. It's so hard to memorise! There's like 40+ pages in 1 chapter and there's 4 chapters for me to learn.
However, the one I am most worried about is English because if English fail = everything fail. Currently, I've just finished reading all my Social Studies essays.
There's definitely insufficient time to memorise every point , so I am just going to understand the chapter then at least if I were to forget the points, I will at least be able to understand the chapter and be able to just bomb nonsense.
In the afternoon, friends called me to ask about this year's prom night things, saying that they are going to have a audition at Jelutung CC on Thursday for those people that are going to perform for prom night and I have to go since my friends and I have already planned to sing on the stage. However, it's quite troublesome though, cause thursday is like school holiday and still need to go to Sembawang for the audition. But obviously I don't need to go for the audition at all man. HAHA joke.
So currently, I'm doing nothing. Damn bored.
Going to bathe already. Ok think i post till here already ~ Bye guys~

You placed the colours into my world

but you're like a maze,

where all of the walls all changed continuously.

I've done all i can

to stand on the steps with my heart in my hand.

Now i'm starting to see,

maybe it's got nothing to do with me.

AiShen

4 September 2010 { 8.15 pm }

Sense your appearance fading off...

2010-08-29T05:51:00.000-07:00

Sometimes when i'm alone i wonder

is there a spell that i am under

keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Ok today today did'nt went out~ Whole day was at home studying ~ Morning wake up at around 11am+ then went to use computer~ Played games for awhile then call friends to ask what's the first exam that we are having ~ So he ask me check my N's entry proof . So went to search around the whole house for that piece of shit~ But while searching for the N's entry proof i found a few Social Studies notes~ lol but only manage to find 3 piece of paper only but ok at least better then nothing . One paper cover 1 whole chapter of essay that i need to memories in Social Studies textbook , so quite worth it , lucky i found that paper ~ So continue searching around the whole house at last found that the N's entry proof at the living room being cover my mountains of books... LOL cool huh~ I got study one ehh~ Dont play play ~Then after that went to read the Social Studies essay~ That what i have done for the whole day~ Btw i am gonna start my flying again~ LOL gonna be a tough start ~ But it's ok ~ I will get use to it~ Ok currently doing nothing~ Ok guys think thats for that day ~ I will post when i got the time ~ Bye~

To know how high you get me , is to see how far i fall...

AiShen

29 August 2010 { 9.10pm }

Everything is different from what you say before... Why?!

2010-08-22T04:47:00.001-07:00

It will still fades away someday...

How i wish it can last forever.

Ok quite long period never post~ Cause due to some internet problems~ But it was fixed on last 2 day . Didnt have time to post at that time~ So today didnt went out so decide to post~ Tomorrow gonna have school again~~ Like damn bored~ Need to finish up my Dnt as soon as possible ~ Cause is like dragging too long already~ Ok then yesterday went out with friend to slack~ Is like totally damn slack ... We went bottle tree to slack~ Was like walking around doing nothing~ Bored to the limit~ So went home at around 6pm + and i brought my sweet~ Yeah~ Next week no worry liao , if not like last week never go buy sweet then very restless in school~ Currently just finish dinner~ Ate Sa Puo Fan { CrayPot Rice } ~~ Damn nice~~ Ok actually there is nothing much to post~ Cause exam is coming very soon ~ So even weekend also never really keep going out ~ Then weekdays like everyday also got stay back in school study or do Dnt things~ Quite no life~ Hope faster go poly so that can relax more and play more~~ Ok think really nothing much to post already ~ Bye Guys~! Will post again when got time~

All about lies ,

where is all the promises and words u say before?

Why pull me to the sky when you know one day you will let go?

AiShen

22 August 2010 { 8.00 pm }

When you need me ...

2010-08-10T04:30:00.000-07:00

With you gone now

You've turned the right to wrong

It's getting hard to breath now...

Ok let start from yst~ Yst afternoon went out to meet friend at 834 then went off to Marsiling to sheng siong supermarket~ To be aunties and uncles ~ HAHA went to buy food for steamboat~ Then brought alot of thing , so after that went off to my friend house~ Then sit and watch tv while waiting the rest to come~ Erm the steamboat is counted as very successful ~ Cause with the help of my friend parent ~ Then we no need do anything so just sit and play ~ HAHA then all the job my friend parent help us do~ Then at night we give one of our friend a surprise ~ Cause is his birthday yesterday~ HAHA totally fake until him sia~ Ok haha conclusion jiu shi yst is a damn successful steamboat~ So after celebrating his birthday we went off~ Then Yst reach home around 10 or 11 bah~

Today : Morning wake up at 11am then went to bath ~ Cause going schoolmates house to do DNT project~ HAHA i am the fastest to finish up everything~ Like erm 1 hour? haha cool huh~ Power pac one me~ So after finish my project i just disturb those who havent finish~ Then slack slack and eat the food that my schoolmate mother cooked~ Then went off at around 6+ then went home ~ Tomorrow gonna schooling again~ SIAN ar~ haha hair getting long also hope wont tio catch bah~~ So currently just blogging and listening to songs~ After this going to eat my dinner le~ haha Ok lah think this is for today and yst le~ Bye guys i will blog when i have time~~~

With the lights turned down

and your eyes half open

i know you don't see me

but if you just turn around

and keep your eyes wide open

you might feel me here.

AiShen

10 August 2010 { 7.45pm }

Being in a world of illusion is far better being in the reality...

2010-08-07T05:24:00.001-07:00

Reminisce every single bit ...

Ok quite few week not posting~ As last week and last last week is exam week~ Plus computer very lag~ Lucky yesterday my bro friend come repair so change from Vista to window 7 ultimate ~ So now like damn fast the computer , so i decide to post~ If not blog dead liao~ Hump yesterday just sian only~ Was wanting to go out drink and buy sweet but cannot find anyone to accompany so never drink and buy sweet le~ So today went out around 3.45pm go meet friend and buy sweet~ Wow i seriously damn long period never eat sweet le sia ... Like erm~~ 2 weeks? Woah seriously i can get it quit already lo but aiya sometimes by saying is easy but by taking action toward it is just hard... To keep brain stress free so must eat sweet~ Problems just keep going around my head~When problems come and i will keep thinking and stressing over it~ so if the problem is not solve it will just stuck in my brain , so after long time but stacking more and more i become damn stress up... Just like mistake tend to get deeper and more thus being hard to solve in the end... So the more sweet the merrier lo~ One day 4 sweet keep stress away~~ So today just chiong only , just when buy the sweet then start eating continuously liao ~ Erm but must cut down abit lo if not next week school no more sweet jiu jialat~~ Ok then for N level hope my Dnt can finish in time bah~ Cause now lack presentation board liao~ Deadline is 12 August 2010 ~ So Tuesday most probably going to friend house to finish the project~ But at home also do abit drawing of my design ~ So hope can finish in time bah~ If not Dnt cui then my humanities jiu gone case le lo~ Cause humanities hard so only can use Dnt to help me N level~ Wish faster N level over then i go O level then i sure go Pub and Club chiong liao~ Woo miss the taste of alcohol~ So currently doing nothing lo~ Just chatting in msn~ Gonna bath soon after this post~~K lah so just stop here le lo bye guys!~~~

Everything has its beauty , but not everyone sees it...

AiShen

7 August 2010 { 8.40pm }

Sometimes thinking ,

who are the people left

that can actually share my burden...

Just feeling so lost...

No one understand me...

The one that know me the most already gone

who can i still count on?

Rewinding memories , i just laughed ...

2010-07-14T03:59:00.000-07:00

Days are just getting darker , and darker...

Ok today was late for school~ Alarm rang~ But i never hear~ Until my papa start shouting say 6.50am still dont bath ~ Then i gan chiong take my phone and see the time~ Then jump off bed and bath~ But still late~ HAHA but ok lah~ Lucky never tio caught for hair ... Stupid Felix find problem one sia~ Cut le he that time also say ok~ Then yesterday say my hair so long~ Then ask me where got cut all those... Purposely peng wei find thing to disturb me ... Then today school was normal~ After school my friend came to my school to take his private O's then i went outside school to fetch him in~ Cause he like not familiar to the school ar~ So i bring him to cosmix for his Oral~ Then i went back to class and Marcus say wanna go do Dnt ~ At last went workshop awhile he say he bth wanna go home sleep~ Then left me ~ So i went to find Louis to slack~ Then at 4th floor outside Art room looking at the uniform groups doing their marching~ Omg but not say i insult them or what but to my point of view ~ I think uniform group is the most stupid CCA in school liao~ Only advantages is alot CCA point lol~ Joke~ Ok then slack in school waiting for my friend~ Then at last his Oral end at 4 or 5pm + so went off ~ Then take bus together to Cwp then walked home with him~ Currently now damn freaking bored~ Lika doing nothing~ Don't feel like playing games ~ So just listening to songs now~ Arghh i miss KTV session~ Gonna organise one soon~ HAHA the feeling of singing with a mic is just so cool~~~ Ok gonna bath soon~ nothing much to post le~ BYE GUYS~!

Even by holding on something tightly,

one day it will still leave your life ...

Not saying that you ill treated it ,

but it something called " Change "

in this freaking world...

AiShen

14 July 2010 { 7.09pm }

Words are crap , it's the action that speaks the loudest!~

2010-07-11T06:59:00.000-07:00

Everything turned out different from what i had thought...

Ok tomorrow going school again~ Weekend lika so fast ar~ Time passing damn fast this year~ Like machiam blink of eye then suddenly 6 month pass~ lol~ Sian today actually going to go buy "SWEET " but friends didnt call me out so lazy to go out to buy~ Then today stayed at home singing~ HAHA sing alot English songs~ Wow i found i love those English song that is fast rather then chinese those slow slow sad sad one~ Chinese song like sing until nothing to sing le~ Almost damn alot songs i also know how to sing... Sian one~ Now also less go Ktv le ~ So bo bian can only at home sing to myself~ Currently also doing nothing but listening to songs~ Sian guys if any nice songs jie shao k~ haha k lah think i end my post here le~ Nothing to post also BYE!~

Reality sucks , fate sucks even more!

My life is just a continuous strain of melancholy...

AiShen

11 July 2010 { 10.11 pm }

Thinking about life it is all about pain & sadness...

2010-07-07T03:18:00.001-07:00

Love is like hot air balloons ,

when it's high and warm it get to fly high and even higher

But after alighted from the balloon

then you will notice , everything is actually nothing...

Ok school is kinda bored~ Study and study everyday~ Ok tomorrow gonna be my English " N " level oral le... Kinda stress ~ But ok lah nowdays got revise on the oral thingy ~ I will try my very best to not speak any singlish and to speak in proper sentence ~ Hope can past my oral~ Ok then school today was not really very nice~ Sian nowdays me like not on form ~ Like moodless and restless haha ... Sian sia~ Btw life has changes just as i thought ... But maybe more worse then i have thought... We all stayed ... Why must you choose to leave us? My life like changing every second and minute ... Just never even felt that my life is getting any better ... People says " If you suffer now , you wil enjoy later " , but i like suffer so long hope God will repay me with a very very great gift or something for my suffering HAHA ... Omg bargain with God ... Stupid~~ I don't wanna screw my whole life!~ Guys wish my good luck for my tomorrow Oral k !~ Ok lah really can't think of anything to post le BYE GUYS~!

Holding hands , hugging & kissing ,

it may be nothing before but now

even a hug from you is enough to take my breath away...

AiShen

07 July 2010 { 6.33pm }

What's your defination of love?

2010-06-30T06:07:00.000-07:00

A tears is not just made up of water ,

but 1% of water and 99% of feelings...

Ok school has been very very sucks~ Wa thank to Felix haha ... Aiya sian~ Hair grow till so long ~ Suddenly wanna cut then abit she bu de sia~~ LOL already fall in love with my hair le~ Hais cut liao will heartbreak sia~~ Ok lah sian think this week will get my hair cutted~ Have been studying for this few days ~ LOL a something great is that i never even fall asleep~~ HAHA i must seriously work hard le~ No more slacking~ Cannot effort to sleep in class le~~ Ok then after school stay back to have my finish my Oral test which teacher organise at the holiday term but i did'nt went for it ~ So today stay back to finish it~ Hais like fail badly ~ LOL too many flaw in it~ LOL aiya fuck sia i just dunneo how to use English to pronounce the things that i wanna say in my mind... Ok nevermind ~ So after Oral went home with Marcus & ZhaoJie~ Bus like damn less people so damn shuang~ Air con damn cooling too~ HAHA ok that for today~ And hoped tomorrow my hair wont be caught~ Cause i really wish that i could cut my hair on this weekend~ Btw i slowly slowly getting no idea of those love quotes ~ LOL haha must get back the feel ~ Arbo i now will stress of what quotes to post ar~ Ok lah think post till here le BYE GUYS~~

11:11 comes twice a day , because everyone deserve's a second chance

AiShen

30 June 2010 { 9.27 pm }

All the memories just flash throught my mind every night...

2010-06-25T06:21:00.000-07:00

People say's " after rain it's another brand new day "

but to me it's just the beginning of sadness...

Ok school reopen-ing soon~ In 2 more days time ~ Sian lah~~ Gonna study hard le~ Btw last few days ladtop sot plug ~ Then my bro bring the ladtop go reformat ~ Then last time de old picture and songs all those gone ... Sian sia ~ Then i wanna update my Iphone also cannot ... Cause if update then all my last time de picture and songs in my phone will gone ... Songs still ok can re-download but picture is very memorable one sia ... Sian also dk what to do ... Sian ar! LOL ok yesterday actually going PowerHouse cause got event but at last no ppl pei me so never go ~ Then went to celebrate my friend birthday yesterday ~ So after that went home~ Then today went to take my passport cause expired ... Then renew liao but must go take ~ Then today i went to Lavender to take passport but in the end the staff there say need IC to take passport ... Stupid sia ... Straight get frustrated sia ... Stupid my parent nv give me the IC then waste my time alone go until Lavender to take nothing ... Damn far sia Lavender ... Must go until City Hall change green line then 2 more stop then reach ... Then didnt manage to get my PassPort so went back woodlands to go meet friends ~ Yea thats is what happen for yesterday and today~ Then currently listen is instrumental songs ~ Lika damn nice~ Start to love those kind of songs le~ Even though there is no singing in the music~ But there is still emotions in the music sia~ Like nice~ HAHA Ok tomorrow going to have KTV SESSION!! hope wont cancelled last minute again~ HAHA cause like damn alot months never go le ~ This whole holiday nv go sing dao also ~ Then tomorrow pray god bless me can go sing! HAHA Hope i am on top form tomorrow ~ K lah think end of post le ~ BYE GUYS!

If there is no past and present , we may still be together again...

AiShen

25 June 2010 { 9.34 pm }

Happy things come to my mind ,

2010-06-16T06:13:00.000-07:00

I am so lost .

Only stars are here with me...

Ok today went out to catch a movie with friends ~ Actually wanna watch " KarateKid " , but tickets was like all sold out ... Only left 6.40pm de ... Then cause friends got probation so can't ~ Then we went to watch " A - Team " , a movie that we don't even know what it's storyline about ... LOL but out of our aspect , that movie turn out to be damn nice~ Was like damn funnie and powerful sia those 4 guys ~ Ok shall no elaborate ~ You guys go watch urself~ Then after movie went back to 834 slack ~ Then went home~ Currently damn sian~ Nowdays like damn moody also ~ Every night sleep like keep having the same dream ... But that dream use to be real but now like hopeless to happen again bah ~ Suddenly this few days turn sian sian mode le~ Soon very fast become emo liao~ HAHA kk guys think i shall stop here~ BYE and enjoy your holiday~

Only soft music can express how i am feeling now...

AiShen

16 july 2010

DANCE TILL WE DROP!

2010-06-12T00:24:00.001-07:00

Tick tock on the clock but the party don't stop no~

Ok nothing much to elaborate . Only thing i can say about yesterday is FUN! LOL! Was damn crazy man~ Those songs there just high nia~ Seriously freaking fun~ AZURA SURGE 2 BEACH PARTY ROCK! WOOO! Then after party cab home~ Then reach about 4am plus then i bath and sleeps at 5am plus~ HOPE got SURGE 3 haha ~ K bye guys

AiShen

12 June 2010 { 3.30pm }

I'm here for your entertainment!~

2010-06-09T03:11:00.001-07:00

Still , i am searching for the paradise ...

Ok now days has been going to school for ASP~ But for maths ASP learn quite alot~ Thanks to Gavin~ HAHA tomorrow English ASP ~ Lika sian dk wanna go or not... Cause quite a few of my friends like not going eh~ Btw today after school when for a haircut~ Erm like normal lo~ HAHA just more thin nia~ K then currently damn sian~ Parents not at home ~ Then brother went out to ton ~ Then i today sure alone at home all the way liao... Damn sian sia! Bored daooo~ Suddenly alot question came to my mind again~ My life is like changing again soon~ Not that i am gonna change but all the things that happen around my life is changing~ Sian lah... I am likeazy to catch up to the pace already ... Hais hope that it won't change bah ... Last time i still the best ... I don't wanna see things change sia ... K lah ~ that is the post the day~

Moments of happiness is so short ...

I am unhappy...

AiShen

09 June 2010 { 6.23 pm }

Woo life is getting better and better~~~!!

2010-06-04T03:24:00.000-07:00

I know i will be alright~

Yeah ...

Wooo ~~ Seems damn freaking long since i post again~ Ok quite few days never online~ So never post~ Ok this few days while not posting ~ I have been drinking and exploring~ HAHA for drinking it is so simple ~ I think everyone know ~ While for exploring ~ Has been to singapore most eerie place~ Old Changi Hospital~ Seriously fun and exciting ~ HAHA but didn't manage to finish the whole hospital ~ As we are not very familiar with the place~ Then like basement , mortuary and the opposide side of the hospital ~ Seriously sia damn big the place... Should have go do some reseach b4 going in ... If not sure dunneo how to walk one~ Then we walk from 1st storey till 5th nia ~ Then never walk le ~ Cause they all machiam scare or what lah then dun wanna walk ... LOL all dunwan lead then of cause bo bian then i lead lo~ OK thats was what i did yesterday ~ Then today still not comfirm to the plan yet~ Friend call and ask me to have Ktv session but not comfirm yet ~ Hope really got bah~ Then can go unleash my talent~~ HAHA! Ok lah i go have my dinner le ~ Bye guys i will post more if i am free~ BYE~~~

Life give you oranges , then make orange juice ~

AiShen

04 June 2010

The moments that take my breath away...

2010-05-24T04:56:00.001-07:00

This is the kind of paradise that i want to be in , with YOU...

Ok today was Sport Festival ~ Of cause yesterday was also a very special day ... Today never went to school . Cause last minute then found out Sport Festival was in the afternoon ... I thought was in the morning then no lesson but after that found out from friends that it is in the afternoon which is held after school ... Kind of guilty for not going to school ... HAHA but actually is no normal lesson i already decide not to go school already but N level this year so still lesson as normal so i decide to go. Ok today didn't went out ~ Kind of lazy to go out ~ Haven't brought my sweet ~ Tomorrow going school sure will be a shag day~ Nevermind save money haha nowdays has been spending alot money lo~ Ok nowdays sick ... Sorethroat kum cough kum flu ... My voice change like different sia ... Then at home wanna sing also cannot ... LOL ji tao keep out of pitch ... Cause when sing till the high pitch part the throat damn itchy ... LOL dk why ... Fucktup sia suddenly sick ... Ok btw like a funnie thing happen today~ My friend call me and say Liang Lao shi wanna tell me something , then i was like " WTF? lol i got thing to talk to you meh ... " , then she told me whether i wanna take part in a singing competition . English and Chinese song is both acceptable but i dk wanna take part leh like weird ar LOL sure will be damn shy is i on the stage ... Ok then she say alot people voted and support me wann me to take part , then she ask me comfirm to her by tomorrow lol... Like don't know sia ~ Wait tomorrow then say bah haha~ See got what reward~~ K lah i think i post till here lo~ WOW post damn alot ~ HAHA should be enough to cover up my previous days for not posting bah~~ Ok BYE GUYS~~

我可以为你改变

只要你愿意给

我绝不会食言

AiShen

24 May 2010 { 8.09pm }

我很想你 , 听见了吗?

2010-05-15T05:33:00.001-07:00

I thought all the obstacles can be overcome if we hold tightly to each other ,

but what seriously will hold us strongly together

is TRUST...

Ok today never went out~ Stay at home for the whole day . Lika bored to the limit~ Nothing much to do lah... Sian daooo~~ Ok monday gonna have my last paper ~ Chemistry!~ HAHA wish that i know how to do all the question bah ... Ok tomorrow gonna revise for Chemistry~ Then currently just finishing watching " Kick - Ass " a seriously damn humourous movie man~ Laugh until i peng ... Then have BAN MIAN for dinner~ HAHA like damn nice ar~ Currently doing nothing ~ SIAN SIAN SIAN ok lah this i post till here le BYE~

为什么明明想靠近却还在迟疑

每一天无法不想你

连闭上眼睛怎么都是你

别害怕我难过

告诉我你真实的感受

至少忐忑能告一段落

成全不是美德拒绝也不是一种罪过...

AiShen

15 May 2010 { 8.43pm }

Falling stars upon the sky~

2010-05-07T11:00:00.000-07:00

Its better a heart without words, than words without a heart.

Ok yesterday went school as already pass 12am le~ Ok went school to have just one exam~ Which is Geography ~ The question i dont understand sia , then i dunneo whether the answer i give correct mah ~ Cause i dont even understand the question ask ~ Then after exam went home~ Then reach home bath dry hair and sleep~ Till 7pm + wake up to have dinner ~ Then after dinner 8pm + went out to find friend~ Slack awhile then 10 pm + reach home~ Then currently doing nothing again~ Stupid Maple always midnight sot plug ... If try again still cannot play then i go sleep le ~ Ok lah think i post till here le~ BYE GUYS~Sweetdreams~

All the forever lasting that people said is all just a fake~ Believe me.

AiShen

08 May 2010 { 2.07 am }

Always feel that having control of the whole situation

but later founding out there is no control in the things that is gonna happen next...

You can never control anything in life.

The more you feel that you had control it

actually you are just getting more out of control over it...

Because i choose to believe ...

2010-05-04T06:28:00.000-07:00

Standing at the same point might make me a fool

But do you know why ?

Because i wish that one day you would catch up to me

AGAIN...

Ok today never went school . But heard friend say that D&T de design journal need to get pass up le ... Sian i today never go then i don't know sia ... Fuck then tomorrow must go chiong liao ... Cause friend say that the longer u pass up the more mark teacher will minus ... Sian wa fucktup sia ... Then tomorrow going school~ Then Thursday jiu exam le ... Faster sia ~ Wish holiay faster come~ Cause seriously hate school~ HAHA btw today went to watch Ip Man 2 ~ Like seriously nice~ Cool daoo~~~ Ok the movie damn worth to watch lah ~ No need i say i think all the people that watch Ip Man 1 sure know it is gonna be a damn nice movie~ Ok after movie slack at Fushan awhile jiu went home le~ Then currently doing nothing but sleeping soon ar~ Damn bored~ Ok lah think post till here le BYE~~

I am willing to do this all again with you ,

because i know this time round i am gonna be much much more better to you...

AiShen

04 May 2010 { 9.45 pm }

You are too heavy to be weight in my heart....

2010-05-03T09:50:00.000-07:00

Hey girl , do you feel my sincerity at that time?
Did you know how i feel?
Did you even try to find out?
Why didn't you ask me why...?

Ok tomorrow actually got school but i not going~ Feel quite guilty ~ But just dun feel like going ~ Cause i was like last minute then know that tomorrow actually got school... I see exam time table write tuesday and wednesday no exam ... Then why still need go school sia stupid schedule sia ... Stupid school no brain ... Once and for all finish the whole exam lah stop here and there ... Pek cek sia ... Then currently waiting for the Maple server to fix ... Suddenly lag then i kana dc then after that cant log in ... Btw tomorrow going to watch Ip Man 2 ~ Lika cool ar~ Think should be gonna be damn nice bah~ Ok lah currently damn sian~ Sian dao~~~~~ Ok lah think post till here BYE~

离开你以后并没有更自由 ...

AiShen

04 May 2010 { 1.02am }

I believe the bitter in life the sweeter the outcome later~

2010-04-24T08:47:00.001-07:00

A one that is sweet but not trueful i rather pick the bitter one~

I unprivate my blog le~ COOL HUH~ haha . Ok lets start the day~ Today sleep until quite late~ 12pm + lol wake up use computer all those ~ Then out at about 6pm+ ~ Then go slack and play poker with friends ~ Then go kopi tiam eat~ Parent went Malaysia so no one to buy and cook for me sad ar~ So reach home at around 10pm+ ~ Currently doing nothing . Quite bored ar just chatting at Msn with friends . Btw exam coming on next week Friday ... I havent even start my revisions ... Jialat lo see other people revising and studying for the Prelim lol make me feel guilty~ Ok nvm will start chionging soon~ Hope so~ HAHA like eating sweet everyday lo last time also not really everyday one now is like everyday~ Scare addicted haha but think wont bah ~ I have such strong wills can overcome it de HAHA! Ok lah think thats for today BYE~

Speaking to a hypocrite like you make me feel disgusted...

AiShen

25 April 2010 { 12.07am }

I just can't quit the temptation!

2010-04-01T07:11:00.000-07:00

Wonder why ?

Maybe i am just self fish...

Ok today went to school hair was catch by Laila and Mr felix while they come canteen to extra~ Weird sia lika sway ar ... Always tio catch on the end of the week ~ Ok never wonder gonna cut my hair lika lazy ar ~ Ok so today was normal? After school went to Fushan to find friend ~ Chat and eat sweet ~ So after that went home rest . Then after that went CauseWay Point with PAPA to buy Iphone but waited like 30min then at last say no stock like fuck ar? So went back home after that . Then friend call me out whether wanna slack and eat sweet so went out lo~ Just reach home ~ Currently like refresh ar ~ Sweet session rock~I think i will never gonna quit it~ Cause of its temptation that is so attractive~ So currently still don't know tomorrow plan ~ Friend say Ktv then say Swimming then say play Billard also dunneo gonna have which one ... So see tomorrow ba~ Ok lah think this is for today le Bye guys~

I just feel jealous...

AiShen

01 April 2010 { 10.24pm }

I have been thinking ...

Am i important to you?

Cause you make me feel that

i am just like a item

that can just come and go in your life easily...

I just feel weird...

2010-03-29T04:54:00.000-07:00

What actually is it?

Ok today went school study~ I drool during Social Studies lesson while sleeping ... Lucky no one saw..LOL if not will be like OMG damn xia sway ~ Haha btw school was like boring ... Wonder this few days if there is no school jiu hao , if there is no need for people to study jiu hao lo~ Then our time to play and enjoy will be like more le~ But ok lah haha i now thinking is that even though i wont get to enjoy in my this life i also wish i got alot money for my next generation to enjoy~ haha . That would be great right ~ Haha ok tomorrow going to have school again . But lucky there is Good Friday this week so 4 days of school this week nia~ Ok lah think i will end here le BYE GUYS~

I feel that sometimes i don't understand myself...

AiShen

29 March 2010 { 8.02 pm }

Maybe i just sucks...

2010-03-23T07:05:00.001-07:00

Pick a love ~ It might be the right one~

Ok today went school hair was caught but decide not to catch ~ So today was quite a normal day very tired and bored . But at least almost whole class came so maybe quite entertaining in class . But still prefers holiday times ~ Ok nothing much to post actually ~ Btw nv went for ASP just damn lazy only lo~ So starting wanted to go but at last still decide not to go ~ So went home . Btw currently now chatting in msn with Sean . Hais bro u reminds me of those sad things . Why? We have different categories in our story but i think the ending is still the same for both of us , and yes WE REGRETTED ... Cheer up ~ Ok think this is for this post le BYE GUYS~

I still lose out in the end ... I am the loser...

AiShen

23 March 2010 { 10.18pm }

Thought that my true love hasn't came .

It did came ,

but i didn't notice it , until i lose it...

Until i knew that i have completely lose the girl,

that i always wanted to have.

If there is rollback in lifes,

i wanted to hug u tightly like the old days.

But maybe rollback just only happen in games...

School reopening!

2010-03-21T10:46:00.000-07:00

I thought i saw you on the moon ...

Ok has been going out everyday and come home late for this whole week.School gonna reopen so maybe needa study more so will not go out as much and as late as now days bah . So today was going to pula ubin but at last change decision cause Sean say Pu La Ubin 5pm then close le then no ship to go back so we decide to go West Coast to play ~ On the way there already started rainin so heavy but we all like faking by telling ourself that the rain is only on red line wait later green line then no rain le but wait go green line the rain get more and more bigger... So when reach West Coast we eat inside Mc Donald while waiting for rain to get smaller . Wait wait wait until 6pm then rain stop ... So we went to play FireFox and Pyramid . LOL the pyramid damn funnie lol hard to climb but fun and scary LOL cause very high . Manuel climb damn fast sia lol turn my head up then see him on top liao LOL! Then slowly go up one by one lo after that we went playing FireFox LOL that one the most fun liao . So after that play until whole body wet and we decide to went back to the SeaSide to dry ourself up . So after that went off~ Then went back woodland 834 then went home after eat . Currently just fininsh my Dota game~ So gonna sleep soon ~ Tomorrow not going school as u can see now is 4.30am HAHA . Ok that the story of the day~ BYe guys~

Only you ~

AiShen

22 March 2010 { 4.45am }

There's a sudden of missing you .

Thinking whether i regretted...

Yes i did . Did'nt knew it after when i completely lose it .

But thinking of how good you are now make me feel that i am such a loser ...

I admit i am a loser and i regretted but it is all too late ...

If i knew it long ago ...

I stomp the stage!~ I am a SUPERSTAR!

2010-03-17T09:02:00.001-07:00

Firstly today is like damn sway morning wake up at 9.30am went to bath then when to take my clothes then heard a bomb sound ... Then wait went back to open door the door locked.. Freak sia so i was staying at home wait for my friend to call my house number cause my handphone was in the room sad case then after that i went out with my hair anyhow make plus a anyhow shoe then i went Causeway Point find my friend without a handphone ... Sad lah today no handphone to use but went reach home due to my surprise i got 25 missed call 8 message haha ~ Ok nvm went to "Har Par Villa " to play with friend . Royston , Joel , Ivan , Siew Kei and Sean last of cause i was with them~ So went to Har Par Villa take quite a few picture . This was took at Bus inter-change at don't know where ~

And this 3 is take on bus and inside Har Par Villa~

So after walking all the place at Har Par Villa we went off . Then decide to went back Woodland so on the bus back Sean suggested of going sing KTV so we all agree so went Marsiling for KTV session~ HAHA it was fun~ GUYS know what ? I was on stage haha ~ Ok shall post the picture of my on the stage~
LOL superstar ehh~~HAHA

But seriously i sing nice~ haha if u don't believe go see at :

http://miserablemortals.blogspot.com/

http://closingwall-s.blogspot.com/?zx=71e79060abba5517

HAHA i am the superstar baby~

So after KTV went back 834 by walking the Amirilty Park LOL erm it is behind behind one at the dark dark place so we walk through the forest and at last we reach Replublic Poly and saw the SAKURA ~ So was damn tired and leg was damn pain ~ So struggle through out back to 834 then eat then slack awhile talking crap then went home le~ HAHA ok that was i gonna post for today even though is a roughly post but i think it is has all the information about what i did for the day le~ BYE GUYS

I stomp and melt the stage~ IT's MINE!

AiShen
18 March 2010 { 12. 22am }

So much to say yet no people to tell ...

2010-03-12T06:27:00.000-08:00

Life just make me to walk this path even though i never choose...

Ok today is end of first term le ~ This year like pass quite fast but it is also a good and bad thing . It's good that time past fast as i hate school so i wanted to pass this misery faster so that i can enjoy my life futher on~ Then it is bad as i would miss out alot of friend after that ? Ok so today went to ASP but wait for like 1 hour plus teacher havent come due to pek cek and friend waiting for me at woodlands so i decide not to go for the ASP so i went home to bath and change then come out to find my friends . But weird thing is that this few days happen alot problem to my friends . Like what is happening all of a sudden ? Suddenly so many problem came . Even though i try to cheer up myself this few days as i and keep laughing and talking crap to entertain myself but i feel that this humour is like fading sia ... Weird ehh stress is coming lo~ So today went to 834 and sit and chatted with friend . Yea but nothing much to do as quite bored also . Slack until 7pm + then i went home to eat . Currently now doing nothing but chatting in msn . Ok think this is what i gonna post le nth much to add le Bye guys~

I just getting fedup with alot things in life ...

AiShen

12 March 2010 { 10.43 pm }

Zhu Ni Shen Ri Kuai LEEE~

2010-03-03T04:54:00.001-08:00

Yea ~ He is the birthday BOY!! Yea and this is Bao Yi and his Birthday bro~
Cute right~

AND all but not last~ This is US!

Ok so today went school . After school went home and found out i never brought my key ... I was thinking of alot of idea like use needle to open lock? LOL haha nvm but last because pek cek so check my whole bag and at last i found my precious key~ So went home rest awhile after perspire dry then i went to bath . After that went down to 834 to find friend ~ Got Royston , Joel , Ivan , Sean , Mason , Kim Cheng , Raymond , Bao Yi and Siew Kei { I think there is no lack out of any people but if there is go tag my tagboard i will edit it } So we order damn alot food ~ After that went to 835 to cut cake and DaKuai came too . So end up cake flying all around but lucky me i never tio~ Then i go throw Raymond cake then Bao Yi go wack me... HAHA but end up Raymond take full plate of cake chasing me but i power~ never tio catch dao HAHA! So after that went to slack at playground and disturb people~ After that went to play basketball for awhile then went home le . Currently havent bath ~ Going to bath after this~ Ok lah think this is end of today ~ Bye guys

突然好想你

AiShen

03 March 2010 { 9.13 pm }

I don't even know what i want...

2010-02-28T04:36:00.000-08:00

一百種生活!

Ok today never went out~ Stay at home for the day . Tomorrow going school again damn sian ... Hais school like so sian sia ... Study and study and study ... Ok yesterday went out to sing Ktv with friend ~ then slack until 11.pm+ then went home~ And i learn a new song~ haha it is nice i love it man ~ Ok think nothing much to post le ~ Bye guys~

I just wonder , why would things be like this ..

AiShen

28 Febuary 2010

Why ? I just alway have a question mark in my heart...

2010-02-26T08:58:00.000-08:00

The breezy night , make the atmosphere lonely...

Ok today go school ~ I did get back my skinny pants ~ But was delayed quite long by Madam Laila ... She purposely sia~ lol ok then after that went for ASP then went home~ About 8pm went out to find friend to eat sweet ~ Woo ji tao quite few days no eat so chiong quite fast~ Awhile nia jiu eat alot le~ So slack and crap around ~ HAHA seriously find it damn funnie when with my that group of friend ~ Joker sia they all ~ Then went home around 10.40pm + . By the way damn hot this few day ~ The weather is very nice but jiu shi damn hot like no wind very stuffy like that ... Ok lah think this is what i gonna update lo Bye guys~

Which path to walk ? Which path to go?

AiShen

27 February 2010 { 1 . 14 am }

If thing gonna be like this ...

2010-02-25T03:13:00.000-08:00

Even if all the lights is not with me...

Ok today went school was like nothing much to do~ Btw my pants get catchs that why i would be wear baggy pants for this few days , but not much worries cause tomorrow i gonna get back my pants le ~ So i think tmr gonna be the last day bah ~ Then maybe people in my schoo will see me folding up my pants into 3/4 haha dun get curious ~ just that i hate baggy so i rather make it in to short pants ~ Ok then today my friend got suspend for another 2 week i wonder how he gonna make it this year to sec 5 , as in he got suspend 2 week already b4 this then not one week time he got suspend for another 2 week again LOL freak ... Then i jiu sian in school lo lesser people to disturb le ~ Ok i few damn sian~ I wonder who gonna stand up for me this time~ But it ok i know i am use to get help from people so maybe this time i gonna go by myself ~ Yea myself and that gonna be me! Woo grant me the power babe! Sometimes i wonder how many regrets i have in my life till now~ It is seriously quite alot man ... Sometimes just wonder why i would do those stupid choice . Never knew i would be drop down from the mountain that i had climb but i did ~ Maybe that is a good thing it teaches me that no one gonna be the greatest forever~ HAHA ok lah think that is what i gonna say le lo Bye guys~

I will still bright myself up~

AiShen

25 Febuary 2010 { 7.31 pm }

I am just tired...

2010-02-20T18:47:00.001-08:00

After going through so much... It's still just a never ending journey...

OK got good news and a bad news~ Good new is that the Marsiling auntie salon has open! woo haha i book her 1pm later then go cut hair ~ Song sia~ If not yesterday i still stress over going where to cut hair ... Then erm bad new is that i am seriously getting fat ... My chest is like fats sia now ... Then stomach more dun say lah LOL got beer belly lol... OK lah but is little bit nia not very jialat . WAWAWA think of workout i just no motivation sia ... Like thinking back last time de suffering over those ownself de crazy workout then i go no feeling of doing again sia ... Overall conclusion is that i don't have last time de mindset liao leh ... So that why make me just want relax and don't do workout le. HAHA ok lah think that for today le~ i go play games liao BYE~

When will there going to be an end?

AiShen

21 Febuary 2010 { 10.57 am }

Where is my luck?

2010-02-18T17:00:00.001-08:00

You will never know~

Wa freak sia ... Sian early in the morning tio send home ... Fuck lah stupid Salon when then open sia always call never answer de ... They dunneo go off how many days sia ... Sian i wan cut hair then go back school study sia ... N level his year sia important . Plus fuck tup sia this school keep catch this and that then this cannot that cannot ... Pek cek bodoh... Hais ... Damn sian sia now ... Nothing to do le lo . ~ Ok lah think end here le bah BYE~

I am just geting tired...

AiShen

19 February 2010 { 9.07am }

Time has got a way of taking back everything you thought you had...

2010-02-17T19:59:00.000-08:00

Going through up and down~

Ok quite long no post le~ haha erm Chinese New year just pass~ But still quite busy this few days . I got time to post i because i was send home from school LOL cause of Louis and Jinfu fault lah ... Hai me tio catch ... Sian was having recess then Jinfu tio catch pants then need to send home then he wan go buy file or something then he lure Mr james come canteen ... Then MrJames starting catch Louis nia then after that he went off to send Jinfu back home then after awhile he come back again then louis sit just next to me then Mr James saw me then catch me also ... Freaking sway lah ... LOL sian i want go cut hair but Marsiling the auntie machiam havent open yet ... Sian ~ Btw later going out to fishing~ haha . I think should be never cut hair bah tmr go try luck lo go skl if tio send home then bo bian liao . But tmr going tatical movement whole day sure very shag sia ... Ok lah think nothing much to post le BYE~

I didn't cry the day you moved away

I didn't think that I could feel this pain

Until I saw the stranger that was you...

could it be that nothings gonna change

cause time has got a way of taking back

everything you thought you had

the girl you used to be

the one I lost when I let go of you

I gotta get your memory out of my head .

Would you catch me if i had to fall ?

Would you even find the time for that at all ?

AiShen

18 Febuary 2010 { 12.14 pm }

Nothing is forever same...

2010-02-07T03:30:00.000-08:00

Ok yesterday went out to buy clothes . Though i would spend more then 200+ but below my budget i spent just $106. HAHA i brought 2 bermudas , 1 Tee shirt and 1 red formal with ribbon ~ . I like it alot ~ Ok yesterday went alot place to find nice clothes Eg." Somerset,Orchard and Bugis". But even though went to alot places but just brought this few clothes and pants . Today was going out to buy a pants that can suite with that formal , cause the formal is like red - pink so is bright colour so if wear with black pants will be like not very suitable so was deciding to go buy a light blue bermudas that can suite it better~ HAHA but havent buy i see when my friend take his car then drive his car go buy better if not take MRT or Bus like very ma fan . Ok then today never went out . Btw next week going Malaysia le . Friday not going school cause i going Malaysia to celebrate Chinese New Year so maybe next next week de monday then come back bah . But now have quite alot of plan for Chinese New Year sia ... Wish plan wont be cancle by then . ~ Btw sian sia tomorrow school again ... Like damn sian de lo go school .

If miracle would happens...

How to win this ?

2010-01-23T10:09:00.001-08:00

How lonely it seems?

Erm . Today never went out . Btw Valentines and Chinese New year coming~ Wish everything will be smoothly ~ Btw nothing much to post . I wish all those things never happen before ... Then we can just go on and on ... Why must there be obstacle to stop us ... But hais whenever happen has already happen , only thing that i can do is whether i can just put down all the things that i am carrying to love you... But it seem hard ... I don't know why ... I don't dare to promise you anything because i scare i can't fullfill it ... Just give me time bah ... I will slowly overcome this .

Love is not easy at all ...

AiShen

24 January 2010 { 2.17am }

Happy Birthday said to myself ...

2010-01-17T06:37:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to myself in minutes time~

Ok today never went out . Lazy to go out . So stayed at home for the day~ Think no celebration for this year . But i am gonna 16 le haha no more just watch PG movies ~ I can watch Nc16 le ~ Sian , not much blessing haha it ok anyway . Tomorrow gonna have school all gonna sleep early so ... Think so bah haha i damn positive ... Btw today is also Jay Chou birthday WOO so lucky of me to have a same birthday as him . Happy birthday to Jay Chou Zhou Jie Lun and myself~ What to post leh ... Erm nevermind bah that's for today ~ NIGHTS guys .

Love is like quicksand , the more you struggle the more you sinks...

AiShen

17 January 2010 { 10.44pm }

女人心 , 海底針...

2010-01-15T06:36:00.000-08:00

Darkness cover me from you , because i don't wish you to see me ...

Ok today went school . After school went Ktv with Marcus , Desmond , Gavin , Anthony , Gary , Youxiang , Weixiang and Casey { Not sure whether got miss out anyone} Ok then went sing . Jinfu , Shinkiat and Gerald go by them self cause they going home change but at last also never come ... So sing alot but just don't have the feeling ... Maybe study in school whole day then very tired ... Then after singing all went home . By the way was gonna BBQ tonight but due to some problems it was cancle ... Ok nevermind that is not important . Tomorrow gonna have another BBQ but i not sure whether going or not cause alot people that going i also not familiar one ... Sian wait go liao like extra... Ok lah see first . But no mood to go ... Btw just now watch Naruto Suppiden . Wa is like damn sad sia ... The anime damn nice... Beitahan seriously everyone that like anime should watch that show ... Ok currently damn sian going to bath soon . Hais suddenly feel very pek cek ... Nvm lah think post until here le BYE~

You just trash me completely...

No chances at all...

AiShen

15 January 2010 { 10.54pm }

Maybe darkness should just cover me completely from this world ...

Because nobody cares...

不让你看见...

2010-01-13T03:26:00.000-08:00

I just can't stand the consequences...

Ok today school was normal . Sometimes i keep asking if i should walk the path i use to walk last time ... I just don't know wether i should join the family ... If i join the first thing i do is clear this school de dog ... But think of this year N level jiu sian ... Wa is like a burden or maybe is a responsibility ... Aiya nevermind times will tells me what to do ~ Btw now hearing songs at Youtube ... Wa like damn emo LOL i found a song very sad sia the lyrics... Then the comment of other people make me emo ... LOL . Ok sian sia what to say le ... Today got alot idea what to blog de sia ... That's why i blogged... But suddenly like can't remember any of it ... Ok lah nevermind think end here bah BYE guys~

这条旧路依然没有改变

以往的每次路过都是晴天

想起我们有过的从前

泪水就一点一点开始蔓延...

Everything things changes but the feeling will always stay the same...

AiShen

13 January 2010 { 7.40pm }

It's a POP!~

2010-01-11T03:39:00.001-08:00

No one is going to come...

Ok seriously nothing much to post~ Just that posting for fun bah , cause quite sian and tired ... I afternoon damn feel like sleeping but must tong until night if not take nap in afternoon then night no need sleep liao ~ By the way school quite Ok lah got Gary come class joke and disturb in class then abit better haha . Then Physic class damn sian , nb the Chio Wee Meng teaching like machiam hypnosis hear him talk i can like suddenly going blackout sia... Then i was like damn beitahan when want sleep that time i faster take earpiece open song to keep awake LOL if not sure blackout one ... Then other lesson still not bad , but i found like i still havent get the attitude in studying... Can't focus on studies is like still feel like playing ... But nevermind this year is N level i wont play play with it one , haha gonna work hard ehh~ I wan go poly! Believe me i gonna make it!~ HEHE ok quite sian this few days , hearing some damn POP de songs . Wa it is like turning me on sia ... Hearing the songs make me feel like going to Pub or Club LOL haha beitahan but must wait holiday if not weekends go then when go school will damn shag ... By the way my birthday is coming but Marcus they all say gonna open BBQ to celebrate Desmond birthday then they say celebrate my birthday at his BBQ together , erm cause i am just 1 day bigger then Desmond. The BBQ is on 16 January if no wrong but actual birthday of me is on 18 january HAHA . Ok lah think this is for today BYE GUYS~!

Let imagine that whatever happen arounds me is just illusion...

and that's a LIE~

AiShen

11 January 2009 { 7.48pm }

Walking and no more stopping...

2010-01-08T05:39:00.000-08:00

Me and only me ~

Today was end of this week ~ Tomorrow no school so will not sleep early today . By the way sian sia , seriously damn freaking sian ... Never felt so bored before sia , is like i want to go Msn find people chat but jiu shi dun have the person that i want to chat that is online ... So went gaming but the game suck man ... More i play more no mood ... Beitahan what should i do ? LOL... Fuck lah damn bored by the way don't feel like blogging one but just don't know why i still come blog ... Sian sia want find friend come out but he is OverSea so must wait him come back at monday... Sian sian sian ... Steady i think i go watch Tv or something liao computer nothing to do one ...

I didn't know i would be so stupid ... Nevermind it is now all over~

AiShen

08 January 2009 { 9.46pm }

I would rather smile

and let everything past by

then rather crying ...

Because i just want to leave the last best impression ,

of me for you...

Is all this fated?

2010-01-06T03:37:00.001-08:00

Under the moonlight , it shines upon us...

Today went school but didn't get catch by any teachers . But got few teacher asking my hair quite long why never tio catch... Wtf where got long lol is short until damn nerd sia ... Ok btw i wax my hair up today cause there is overlap on both side but one side is thick so i wax up then can like see both side is like slope then fridge was comb to the side to become shorter too . But i got a feeling that today never get caught is i lucky nia LOL... Wish tomorrow and the rest of this year won't get catch bah ... Seriously school reopen then like damn sian liao . School life is like damn bored ... Nothing much special to do ... Is like feeling that life is damn meaningless , people studys whole life just to get a good jobs when grow up and thinking that you can actually enjoy for the rest of the life . But you just forget that you need to continue to work like crazy for your wife and children ... Then is like study and working take part in almost 3/4 of your life... How to enjoy life? LOL correct mah? Haha like damn crap ok lah stop here le BYE~

这是不是命运对我的惩罚

爱你也没办法

恨你也没办法

陷在这个漩涡只想挣脱它

拉住你的手

却让我也被拖下

Do you actually cares?

AiShen

06 January 2010 { 7.48 pm }

I gotta feeling~

2010-01-05T04:33:00.000-08:00

Erm currently using Itouch to post so don't think gonna post that much cause quite hard to type . Btw today go skl tio send home cause hair . Then when reach home take a nap lol but i sleep till 7 pm + . Ok btw i this few days is like weird i alway got kind of feeling that telling me what is gonna happen . Like just now don't want usr Itouch le then is charging then i suddenly has a feeling that u are online then i go take and online and indeed u are online... I maybe it just fated? Maybe bah ok lah think post till here le bye guys~

What pattern then badminton!

2010-01-03T05:46:00.001-08:00

The things you said you never do before with other guys i use to believe . But now i don't believe anymore , cause whatever you show me now days just make me lost trust in you . You just make me feel that are so cheap ... Maybe you did before and take me as a bloody fool and for a ride.

I want to stop the time!!

2010-01-02T10:56:00.000-08:00

We are just like the legend ...

Hais , maybe i just regretted? But it too late le bah ? Why the feeling just came back at this time ? My feeling is just playing me ... I thought it is over between you and me before , but i never knew today i would be here regreting it ... Nvm . Btw school is gonna reopen tomorrow ... Hais 2 month of fun just past so fast ... School reopen dunneo when gonna go Pub drink again ... Seriously haha but nevermind~ Ok lah nothing much to post actually

Let us not break the silence ...

AiShen

03th January 2009 { 3.05am }

Since i got no chances to say it

so just let it be a secret

forever in us...

I thought you understand me...

2010-01-01T07:52:00.000-08:00

How romantic...

Ok yesterday went out to celebrate New Year . First bath and went to 806 to find Sean then after that eat lunch then Cab down to Orchard to find Royston , Joel , Ivan , Emanuel , Mason and Damien { I don't know spell correct mah } Don't got miss out anyone~ . Then reach Orchard walking around LOL very tired sia alot people plus quite hot... Then after that decide to go ClarkQuay to drink but at last there Pub Full . Then waste time and money , Cabbed to BoatQuay . Then first went to eat . Quite expensive sia the food at the restraunt , erm is like a small plate of Fried Rice $10 ... Then i share with Ivan become lesser LOL but quite nice actually is that the rice too little LOL not more then 10 mouth finish le... After that drink Tiger Beer at the restraunt . Open like 4 jar to drink first . Then drink until 12am LOL all went out to the river to see fireworks ! Woo a feeling like dunneo how to say when see the fireworks is like abit Gan Dong cause so fast 1 more year past ... 2010 le ! 5 min firework damn nice sia ... So after the firework went back restraunt to drink . After finish drinking went to play Billiard . After that Royston Gf very tired plus Royston want vomit so they want go home first . Then cause they go then we all go le . But left Emanuel and Damien there cause they going Pub with their friends . Then Royston with his Gf plus Mason take a taxi . Then after they go me Sean and Ivan go went around looking taxi ... Then alot people taking taxi also ... Then somemore most fucktup is the Taxi uncle got money dun want earn one ... We go Woodland they all dun wan ... If they take us sure they earn alot ... Then we walk until du lan then we all Aw Sa Pa La LOL then at last we saw a Cab then a guy wait there for very long le we ji tao Aw Sa Pa La past them then snatch the Cab LOL then they diao us then we point them middle finger HAHA ... LOL lost their Cab still must tio point middle finger sure they du lan until peng ... LOL was going back Woodland to drink somemore but on the Cab the more i sit the more headaches... Bei tahan then i ask sean they all put my go home first ... Then cause i go home then they also go home le ... But even though nv ton but actually is quite a nice night cause we can celebrate new year tgt ! WOOhoo but sad thing Raymond did'nt come if not the we full house liao~ 2 more days school jiu reopen le! Must seriously get ready haha cause seriously don't know what challenge lies ahead . Ok today stay at home . My mama cook steamboat LOL damn alot kinds of foods , then sean call me go his house go eat steamboat also LOL like damn qiao sia i eat he also eat ... LOL but i nv go find him cause my house already alot thing to eat le . Btw i found out this few days i use alot time to just post ... Maybe it just too much to think... Ok so that's for yesterday and yesterday de yesterday .

Is all the past all illusions ?

Where is the person i knew at that time?

That can easily guess correctly what i am thinking...

Hais...

AiShen

02th January 2009 { 2.03am }

There's always alot i want to say to you,

but whenever i talked to you

i just suddenly can't bring myself to say it...

WHY?

Show off?

2009-12-30T06:28:00.000-08:00

Promise?

Dont step lah , think you got boyfriend then what? Big fuck ar? You think your Bf give u all his first time then tai sai? Don't tell me your parent agree you and him together or not lah think i give a damn ... That your fucking problem lah ... Delete my post at FaceBook and said alot of your relative there , don't give excuse lah ... Fuck , spoil my mood ... Wa girls are so fucktup ... Oh no no no maybe i should'nt say that cause it just you nia , i believe there is still better girls out there better alot . Take a deep breathe~ Relax ...~ Tomorrow new year countdown liao must not let this kind of thing spoil my mood~~ Btw guys did you guys notice that tonight moon are damn round , damn bright and damn nice!~ Omg i love it man but sad there no stars around it if not it will be a great view!

Owns you no more...

AiShen

30 December 2009 { 10.43pm }

How i wish i never even knew you ,

but i think you would wish that you never knew me before more...

What to do ? What to say ?

2009-12-28T22:55:00.000-08:00

It's like singing what i am thinking inside my heart...

Erm today never went out stayed at home and use computer ... Yesterday damn funnie LOL . Vinis dun hate me liao lah LOL i say sorry le hor , must relax k dun angry le haha
"You say i doubt you so much but it's all the things you do that make me feel so ... Hais maybe i am just thinking too much ... Omg i just can't believe that i wrote that much ... I know i hurt you alot with all those words in the previous post . I know as your character you will keep thinking about this and get bothers over it . Whatever i talk so much is all useless now , all blame to myself . I was the first to let go all this and now i'm here crying all over .It is like no fair to you ... Sorry for my self fish ness ... "

Crying over the spilled milk now , it's already too late...

Right?

AiShen

30 December 2009 { 12.41am }

Smoke through the days ...

2009-12-28T10:30:00.001-08:00

It is just like my heart , lost...

Erm... Yesterday post is quite actually too harsh ... But i just think through the night , maybe i would rather be the fool to continue believe you . Because all those memories , it is just so real ...Whatever you did before to me , i just can't believe it is all fake . So maybe i choose to be a fool and continue to trust everything was real . I don't know it was a fake or real , only one that know it is you . But it is OK as time past , nothing is left behind , it is just only left the memories ... Yesterday i don't know why , i just write the post in a bad mood ... My friend say you angry because you are jealous , but i not sure ... Because i not sure of my feeling . Maybe actually i also seriously don't understand myself . I share my feeling with a friend yesterday , feel much better after that . I don't know whether you have read all the post this few days , but serious speaking i wish you had read it because it is all for you... Let the story ends here ... No more once upon a time .

Maybe i did regret...

AiShen

29 December 2009 { 2.45am }